Snow Day

I had a hard time getting up the short drive last night. Schools are closed, but I have work today.

I have so many homeless clients. I hope they are at least indoors with the temperatures below 0° with the wind chill.

Stay warm,


A Day of Awesomeness

Today was just awesome. My husband was baptized AND my daughter Tesla. That’s right, a twofer today, in Heaven. You know there’s a celebration going on as two more believers shared their stories of accepting Jesus as their personal savior. This year our church has had 109 come forward to be baptized. That is God working there.

The day wasn’t without drama. Tesla mentioned to her father the night before that she was getting baptized today. So this morning John called and asked Tesla if she wanted him to come along. She said yes. I know this isn’t very Christian of me, but I didn’t want to have to deal with him. Hey, I’m still working on controlling my anger towards her father. Especially now that he’s divorcing yet again and already has made a dating ad online.

His soon-to-be ex talks to me. He knows it. What’s he going to say? We can’t talk? I guess I’m her listening ear through the process. I get that.

The situation just has me sick. I tell her she will get through it and come out for the better. If I can survive and have to continue to interact with him because of Tesla, she can get through it. She has her grandson and a good job and car that she can afford. I didn’t have any of that and I came through. God, family and friends and readers who read my story, followed my life through the tough times and now the good.

I got through those toughest times by leaning on God. I prayed SO much. Sometimes I wondered if I was just wasting sleeping time. The struggle was REAL. Realizing my bad choices, my lack of ability to stand up for myself, giving into demands I shouldn’t have. It’s easy to get down on yourself. Beat yourself up over the past. Don’t fall for that. Focus on the now.

Being an example to Tesla is important to me. I try so hard to not let the issues I have become Tesla’s. She looks up to me. She knows God, Jesus and church are important to me and so, they are important to her.

I am so thankful Tesla has realized her faith so young and proud of her to come forward and tell everyone. And, I’m so thankful for my wonderful husband sharing his story. This has been a fantastic day in the name of God. We had a little celebration at home after the baptism with our family and friends and our neighbors came over and shared lunch with us. We told them about the baptism and it was awesome. Invited them to church in the future…see how that works…

Now my thoughts are focused on decorating for Christmas. I can only tackle one event/holiday at a time.

Tesla was happy her dad came to see her get baptized. I was happy there was no drama.

God is Always Good,


How To Ruin Your Life (Without Even Noticing That You Are)

Read this…it makes so much sense!

I’m taking notes in bed

I woke up in the middle of the night, slightly alarmed by the fact that aliens were trying to contact me while I waded through the Susquehanna River. I found the way they spoke to me in my head amazing and I was really pumped that they chose me to communicate with. I realized it was a dream since the metal plate in my head would actually prohibit alien communication through thought invasion, but as a dream, it was a winner.

Now it’s just a slight memory and I’m angry I didn’t have a notebook, recorder or even my phone by the bed to make a few notes because that dream was great and I could have used it as a springboard for writing material. I remember in my half awake, half asleep fog that it was note-worthy, sadly I drifted back off and didn’t write a single note and I can’t remember exactly how things went down in the dream. Why must dreams be so fleeting?

I swear, tonight, I will have a notebook/recorder/phone. I think just having my camera beside the bed and turning on the video recorder is the best idea. (Strictly to record my dream memories, let’s not go elsewhere with that.)

I start my new job Monday!!!

I was kidding about the metal plate,

Graduating 25 years after high school


When I started York College of Pennsylvania four years ago, graduation in 2014 seemed like an eternity away. Now I feel like my four years at YCP flew by. I’ve had the most amazing experience going to college as an adult rather than right out of high school. I believe attending as an adult made me try much harder to achieve a high GPA and I truly believe my dedication to making high grades kept my mind off the fact that I was struggling to get through a long, ugly divorce process lasting six years. Now, to my delight, both have come to an end. I finished my last college course last week and the week before my divorce was finalized! Now I can focus on writing my story about life lived with a narcissist. This blog has followed the process of divorce, the book will be about what life was like. I’m not looking to villainize my ex or portray myself as a helpless victim. I will write this book so that others know the signs, and possibly, I can help one person realize the traits of a narcissist before they say “I do.”

The title of my future book I Used to Drive a Mercedes.

For now I drive a 1992 Honda Accord and celebrate having a wonderful man in my life and an earned degree.

The worst is over,



Spartapalooza 2013

By Pattie Crider This link will take you to the highlights of York College’s Spartapalooza 2013.  Enjoy!

Winners and Losers

Do not doubt the wisdom
That which most will never grasp
Struck so sudden
Left in awe
Serving the interest of our hearts
There will always be winners and losers
That’s the way love works

Student Spotlight: Matt Wilson

By Melanie King

“I had listened to Go Home Freshmen before, and I loved their music because the lyrics spoke to me.”

Matt Wilson, 20, is a junior entrepreneurship major who is currently in the process of auditioning to become a Music Industry and Recording Technology major.

He also plays the drums in the Maryland based pop-punk band Go Home Freshmen. He started playing drums in the fourth grade because his older sister was involved in marching band and orchestra. She wanted him to play violin but Wilson took to the drums and he has not looked back.

Matt started filling in for the Go Home Freshmen’s original drummer who was in the process of joining the Marines. He played a few shows with the band and to his surprise they invited him to be a permanent member. “When they asked me to join the band it was one of those fan-boy moments. I was so happy.” said Wilson. Though he is not an original member of the band Wilson has played a big role in the development of the band’s new album.

Open for Love

My heart was closed, a sign placed “Do Not Disturb”

                              Cold and Vacant.

I blinked, and blinked again. I felt a stir as my eyes swept over him.

My heart beat faster and the blood rushed to my face.

I came to realize I was holding my breath.

We walked toward each other and our arms circled our bodies.

The hug felt good-and so much more.

A direct challenge to my vacant heart.

The familiar knocking in request to enter.

“So good to see you after all these years.”

With that, yes that my friend, my heart began to thaw.

And just a week later, reduced to a puddle of desire, that I’ve never been so priviledged to previously experience.

Revenge of the Drones

By Cora Harmon


Children are dying at the hands of the United States military. According to the Pakistani Report, from 2006 until 2009, unmanned aerial vehicles, also known as drones, have been reported to have killed as many as 100 children. These drones have been proven very useful to the U.S. Military. The drones are able to give long term surveillance and are able to locate specific targets. In this report, the children allegedly died in a single air strike on a religious school. The Bureau of Investigative Journalism said some information from the Pakistani Report came from paid and local Pakistani officials and may not be verified. U.S. officials argued that Pakistani information is unsubstantiated and they lack credible sources of information.

A U.S. government official said, “The notion that the United States has undertaken operations in Pakistan that resulted in the deaths of hundreds of innocent Pakistanis is ludicrous.”

However, in the early 2000s the U.S. government admitted to accidentally killing civilians using the drones. They reported that about 50 civilians were killed while the BIJ reported almost 400 civilians being killed, of that 168 were children. U.S. officials are questioning those reports and trying to figure out who is giving out this information. Two years ago, the U.S. reported that American drones had killed over 2,000 terrorists.

White House Press Secretary, Jay Carney, defends the drone program saying that these attacks are meant to prevent terrorist attacks and to save the lives of the American people. Carney also says that the use of these drones is ethical and legal; the U.S. needs protection and drones are the appropriate corrective measure.

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